Surrender and take action.

I just logged into my blog for the first time in almost exactly 2 years and I came across a post that I never published from April of 2020. I wrote about a collective crucifixion, a chance for the world to 'die' to all that we've known and emerge as better people. 

Have we done that? I don't know. What I do know, is that there have been many lessons to learn and also lots of things to unlearn. I know for myself, that I've definitely been unlearning a lot of what I've believed my whole life; but are we better off yet? I don't think so. The world as a whole is lacking spiritual practice. We are lacking connection to a power greater than ourselves. Never before in history has God been as phased out as He is today and I believe THAT is our greatest problem.

A Course In Miracles teaches that our ONLY problem is our separation from God* and whenever I have a problem or something is plaguing my mind, I ask myself; have you prayed today? Have you meditated today? Have you made any sort of effort to align your mind with something greater? Without fail, the answer in these instances is always no. This is not to say that I will pray and my problem will disappear, far from it. But when I pray and meditate I am better equipped to handle the problem and I don't feel as overwhelmed. 

It does not have to be God that you talk to; your Higher Power can be whoever or whatever you want it to be, but as humans, we need that connection and we need that belief. 

I have been feeling defeated. I have been feeling lost. I have been feeling bored. I have been feeling totally unmotivated and ungrateful. I believe it is very important to feel our feelings but to not stay stuck there. I never allowed myself to feel my feelings as child/teen/young adult so I've got a lot of them waiting in line and sometimes it can be overwhelming. (Especially when you're in year 2 of a 'global pandemic' with nothing to do but feel them)

In times like these, I need to up my spiritual practice. I need to surrender to God and tell Him that even though I am feeling lost, I am willing to see it all differently. I am willing to change. I am willing to surrender these fear based feelings over to Him. 

Today, I am surrendering by writing this post and even if it doesn't reach anyone, it has connected me back to myself and back to God.

I pray that whatever you are dealing with today, this week, this month, last year ... that you have the willingness to surrender it to the care of your Higher Power, take action and watch as things transform.

And so it is.

Amen.