I don't write because I am forever telling myself I have nothing to share (you've heard this before) and most recently that because things are really mixed up right now, I don't have a clear message. Whether or not any of that is true, there is one thing that I know for sure and that is: I need to get out of my own way, so here I go ...
As you may or may not know, I am going through a lot lately and to be honest, I am really struggling. The fact that I am struggling is something that the perfectionist in me does not EVER want to admit, however, acceptance is the key to self-love, so here we are. Struggling.
I am currently taking Heather Waxman's online course called 'Dig Deeper, Fly Higher', which could not have come at a better time (naturally!) It's SO AMAZING!! Shout out to Heather and all the girls :) I love you ladies!! Something I heard in the first module has been saving me on the regular and that is, "when you fall in love with the journey, the destination becomes irrelevant" … I thank God for this course every single day because the 'soul work' and meditations are keeping me grounded in the present moment and allowing me to move through the uncertainty that I am experiencing with Grace and ease.
The simple fact that I am able to move through fear and uncertainty with Grace and ease blows my mind. It was not long ago that such uncertainty would have completely thrown me off and given me an excuse to sit in self-pity, unable to do anything. I am able to see today that although the struggle is very real, and very painful, it is also my greatest gift.
Living my life as though each moment is a gift and experiencing the awe and wonder of it all allows me to let go of the resistance that my fear based thinking wants me to live in. By letting go of that resistance and fear I free myself to move into a place of acceptance. It is only when we accept things exactly as they are that we can do anything about them anyway, so acceptance really is the answer to all of my "problems".
Eckhart Tolle defines fear as "a dysfunctional relationship with the present moment" …
Marinate on that.
Fear is a dysfunctional relationship with the present moment.
Pure gold.
I don't know about you but I don't want to be in a dysfunctional relationship with this moment, so grounding myself and reminding myself that right here and now all is well is the key. I am then (now) in a place of acceptance and I can choose to be curious, rather than judgmental about what's going on, allowing each moment, each person and each situation to be my teacher.
A Course In Miracles teaches us that every encounter is a Holy encounter. I believe in this with all my heart. God presents me with exactly who and what I need to learn and grow in each moment, my job is to be open-minded enough to learn the lessons.
That's it, that's all.
Stay present. Stay open-minded. Stay willing.
Fall in love with this moment. For this moment is all we really have.
In loving gratitude,
Kylie
