What makes you happy?
For me, I'm authentically happy when I'm practicing acceptance. It's that simple. Yet I am STILL constantly trying to CHANGE myself in order to be healthier or more spiritual. Nothing is ever good enough. What's up with that??
There is absolutely nothing wrong with trying to better yourself, AS LONG as it is to become a more authentic version of exactly who YOU are.
This is where I sometimes get confused.
In this day and age we are absolutely inundated with social media. I am not very techonologically savvy but I do know how to use Facebook and Instagram and I will admit, I love them both. That being said, there is a flip side to that love and that is the constant comparison and feelings of not being good enough that come along with it. I follow a lot of super healthy people, spiritual healers and authors and I LOVE and respect them all, but being human, I can compare. My ego compares my life to what I see on the internet and this is a recipe for disaster.
There was a point in my life where I was waking up at 4 in the morning to complete my list of 10+ things that I "HAD" to do in the morning in order to make myself a successful human being. Eventually when this became way too much for me to handle, I took a few things off the list and then a few more and eventually I stopped doing everything I had on that list all together. I then proceeded to beat myself up for not having a super healthy, super spiritual, "perfect" morning routine.
I have been struggling with the negative self talk and feelings of inadequacy for quite some time now as I've been "off" my "perfect" morning routine for a while, or so I thought. It wasn't until a good friend shared his beautiful experience with me that I realized I DO have a morning routine!
Maybe it doesn't involve doing 10 things before I even step into the shower, but it's MINE. It is simple and relaxing, it is also ever changing. Rigidity doesn't work for me and I need to remember that (as I always try and MAKE it work) Currently, I wake up, drink a glass of water, tell myself I love myself in the mirror, say a prayer from ACIM, shower, make my bed, take my vitamins and eat breakfast. Super NORMAL and simple!!! I don't even meditate in the morning right now because I would rather sleep as much as I can. I admit it. And it's okay because TODAY I am the closest I've ever been to my authentic self and today, THAT is what I need to be in order to be happy. (Note: I DO meditate, it's very important to me, just not first thing)
My struggles with inadequacy and uneasiness come up in many different areas of my life, my morning routine being just one example, I assure you that surrender and unconditional acceptance are actions I practice every single day.
It is essential for me to accept myself exactly as I am and to accept those in my life exactly as they are.
Constantly striving for change leaves me no time to ENJOY the life I have and the person I am becoming.
Letting go and allowing GOD to work His magic is the key.
I vow to STOP trying to change what God created.
How can you accept yourself today?
Do you have a fun morning routine?
I would love to hear about it!!
Kylie
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