Happiness is a choice.

"Happiness is a choice. We either make ourselves miserable or happy and strong. The amount of work is the same" - FR

I read this quote for the first time over 3 years ago and it resonated with me right away. In fact, I memorized it after reading it once and used to repeat it to myself anytime my ego would try to make me miserable (even though I wasn't conciously aware back then of what I was doing or who my ego was, I was clearly on to something!) In every single moment, we have a choice to be happy and THAT is awesome.

More often than not now, I do succeed in choosing Love and happiness for myself. This has been no small task but the point is, it is possible if you want it and are willing to put in the work. I am very grateful that God sees fit for me to do this work on myself and my gratitude speaks for itself when I share what works for me, with you. 

When a bad attitude creeps in, also known as, when I engage with my ego and allow it to take over, I KNOW what I am doing and I notice it almost immediately. I am actively working on returning to Love today, so when I choose to go against that, I really feel it. My spiritual practice is not perfect and sometimes my ego stills wins, yesterday was one of those days. I was ACTIVELY (key word, actively) choosing to engage in negative self talk and I had a horrible attitude, which in turn, caused me to have a horrible day! It wasn't because of anything outside of myself, although my ego did try to blame it on work sucking and me being tired. Maybe work did suck and I was tired but those are not excuses to hate my life! My negative thoughts started to spiral out of control (as they always do) until I was completely unlovable and destined to be alone for the rest of my life!!

Say hello to the drama Queen that is my ego!!

This sounds ridiculous (and it totally is) but the point is, it can happen to me if I choose to engage in the negative mind set that my ego wants me in. This is why I say, happiness is a choice. Thank God, 8 hours of being wretched was enough for me. I went home, took a nap and woke up to what felt like a fresh start! My ego still tried to pull me back down into the depths of despair, but I had had enough. I ACTIVELY chose to realign myself with God and do things according to His will for me. I went for a run (instead of ordering a large pizza) and I carried a message of hope to a bunch of beautiful women in a drug and alcohol treatment centre (instead of crying in bed with my large pizza) and, surprise surprise, I felt amazing afterwards. I had salvaged what was left of my day and I am now left with another CLEAR example of how my thoughts create my reality. I am also left with the hope that the next time I am tempted to choose misery, I will remember this and I will choose happiness instead. A great learning experience!!!

A Course In Miracles tells us that the ego wants to separate us from God. Since my ego can ONLY thrive in separation, it tries to keep me stuck there. Separation is not real. It is of the ego mind and it is something I have learned here. Now my job is to learn to return to Love (aka return to God)

Anytime I bring the darkness to Light, I am moving closer to God and I am healing myself and others around me.

"Enlightenment is not imagining figures of Light, it is making the dark concious" - Carl Jung

Bringing my egos 'tiny mad ideas' as the Course likes to call them, to Light and sharing them with YOU, helps me to LAUGH at the ridiculousness of it all and KNOW that my fears are NOT facts. Hence this blog and sharing with all of you how being tired and choosing to engage in negative thoughts lead to me being alone forever! (HAH!!)

It is all about bringing the crazy thoughts, ideas, beliefs and perceptions of the ego to the LIGHT.

If you're stuck with the egos tiny mad ideas ... I urge you to share today! Even if you feel silly telling someone about what you're thinking (I always do) I guarentee you'll feel better when you're laughing in the face of your ego. God's Light will shine through you if you let it. Love yourself and all those tiny mad ideas of the ego, and most importantly, forgive yourself immediately when you choose to listen to them.

"Forgiveness is the only sane response" - ACIM

Love, Kylie

xo